I have been on a crazy ride for the last two weeks. Glued to my phone. Glued to TataCliq. Glued to Westside. Obsession? More than that. Actually, the first couple of days were understandable. I wanted to spend money. And I did. And I felt good. And then there was a brief pause. All good. Goods started reaching home. And then again, in the last four-five days, the itch is back. More about checking if what I wanted were reduced further, or what was out of stock came back to stock, or just, if I missed out seeing something which was good, and didn't catch my eye! I am sure I haven't put so much sincerity and dedication into anything like this, maybe after my MicroEconomics, cause that it what struck my head now. Anyways, I do feel there is more to this obsession than the want or need to buy and own stuff. I think this is about weighing options and making decisions and taking risks. Something I badly miss doing. I seriously don't remember when I did all that. And I feel safe to do this because it is totally my hard (or not so hard) earned money. MY money. I spent over twelve grand already. And I am not stopping. And the worst part, I am not being open to criticism either. I like it, I like it. I just want it. Some items are beyond rational. But, it is being some comfort corner for me. My little secret. Foxhole. Whatever!
I am not proud of what I am doing. I can't be back it up. I know I can buy at least half the stuff here at a higher price, but minus the transportation weight. More than a fraction might not even be relevant till next summer. All said, I still feel for the materialistic merchandise and just just hope the sale ends soon enough for me to get back to my senses. And that the weight doesn't go beyond what I need to be lectured about.
P.S. Flunked the job interview I had put all my hopes in. I did order a bunch of clothes assuming I would get a job and would need them when I go to work every day. I kind of upset me more than I knew it would, I don't really feel like applying for more jobs. I know I have to. I am skimming through, but the fire did take a blow. Puffff
Till better times, or thoughts or weirder doing,
Thoughtfully,
Me
I am not proud of what I am doing. I can't be back it up. I know I can buy at least half the stuff here at a higher price, but minus the transportation weight. More than a fraction might not even be relevant till next summer. All said, I still feel for the materialistic merchandise and just just hope the sale ends soon enough for me to get back to my senses. And that the weight doesn't go beyond what I need to be lectured about.
P.S. Flunked the job interview I had put all my hopes in. I did order a bunch of clothes assuming I would get a job and would need them when I go to work every day. I kind of upset me more than I knew it would, I don't really feel like applying for more jobs. I know I have to. I am skimming through, but the fire did take a blow. Puffff
Till better times, or thoughts or weirder doing,
Thoughtfully,
Me